Sunday, Feb 22, 2009

Jon and I listed to the audiobook Blink and it talked about how you lose a lot trying to put words to an image you have in your head. I am sure a lot is lost in translation, but I will try.

1) Something about sailing on a ship. Jenn was there, along with my dad, Jon, and Aaron. We had boarded the ship, which was pretty old with sparse accommodations. We were on the deck, all sitting on chairs with little tables, when I realized that I did not have a book to read. I asked my dad if we had enough time before shipping off. He thought yes, so I ran to ask the ship's captain whether I could go ashore to get a book. Everything was in shades of grey, blue, and white... dreary. The boat was rocking horrendously, even at the dock, but Jon and I were enjoying it. Jenn was trying not to throw up and Aaron was consoling her. He gave me the go... I think we were in Paris. But then the dream moved on.

2) I was 24 or 25, so I am not sure if Jon and I were married or not. Usually if I know my age, I have similar circumstances to life at that age... however, I feel like Jon and I were married then, even though in real life we were just thinking of getting back together. I vaguely remember a shoreline. Anyway, there was this guy, who was like 35. I did not really see much of his face, but I think he had a Burt Reynolds mustache. He was a good deal taller than me, and muscular. He had tattoos all down his forearms, but he dressed preppy. He liked me, and I guess I sort of liked him. I was debating what to do. Rational self said that it always has been and always will be Jon, so why bother with a crush? Irrational self said he was hot... I went over to his house for Valentines Day and was surprised to see his parents there. I met them for the first time over dinner and it was awkward, given he was 10 years older than me. They left, but he wanted me to stay overnight. It was dark, I know we were in a bed, but he was pressuring me to have sex with him. I liked him and wanted him... but I did not want to do that to Jon. So I kept telling him no... but he kept pressuring me. Then I think the phone rang or... something disrupted us, thankfully, and he got up and left.

3) I do not remember much of what happened next, but I know there were ghosts and bad things. I had this razorblade that was on the end of something that looked like white tounge depressors all linked together. So it was sort of like a whip with a razor and I could whip it or make it straight like a stick. I was whirling it around and slashing the mosters, but they did not understand that they were coming apart when I sliced through them. Then there was this guy. I thought he was a demon. I made my razor contraption straight and I stabbed him in the shoulder. It sunk in and he barely felt it. Somehow, I stabbed him in the back, hoping to get to his heart from behind, but it was of no use. Then, I stabbed him in the neck, right at the jugular. Blood began to ooze out, but he was still alive. I was REALLY scared and HATED what I was doing.... because I think perhaps it was not a bad guy, but just a normal guy, which is why the razor did not really hurt him, until I stabbed him in the neck. This caused me to wake up, and I was upset over it.

When I fell back asleep...

4) I was at WCU. I was down in the teacher resource room and Lisa Quinn from PALCS came in and asked me to help her with the lamanate machine, which was huge! She totally did not get the concept, and she was going to waste all this lamanate until I told her you should put SEVERAL things in to laminate, not just one business card. She was talking to me about the banquet that we were going to be at... and suddenly it flipped to a sort of dress rehearsal for the banquet. Mymom was there. Jon was going to be. Lisa was sitting on the end of a huge long rectangular table, which was set up in front of hundreds of people. We were expected to eat civily and everyone would be watching us. She talked about her earrings. I was very nervous... and I was thinking about Burt Reynolds man... how could I keep that from Jon? I did not want to, so I knew we would talk soon...

5) I am not sure when this happened, but there were tickets to a play... perhaps it was dream 4 there were tickets to. But they were small and blue and I was supposed to hand them out, so I was going around my parents neighborhood to give them to people. I was down at the end of the street talking to people outside about it.

I woke up singing Dark Side of the Moon.